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  The old guy smiles. “We’re all half dead, Kid. It’s a matter of extending one’s life to make it as enjoyable as possible. Even if we can’t cure you, we can make sure the end is as good as it can be.”

  Bryan’s sharp gaze cuts to the man. “Don’t patronize me. It’s easy to say that when there’s nothing wrong with you.”

  The old guy laughs and points a tongue depressor at Bryan. “And that’s where you’re wrong, Kid. We don’t all go to group meetings or proudly wear our cancer card on our chests—though I think we should.”

  “You have cancer?” Bryan asks, shocked.

  The old guy nods. “Yes sir, and it’s gotten to the point that I don’t see patients anymore, but I owed your aunt a favor, so here I am. The best cancer doctor around, and I’m dying of the same damned disease I’ve spent my life curing. Allow my colleague to take a look at you, then we’ll compare and see if there’s something we can do to make your life better—you can bet money on that.” He squeezes Bryan’s shoulder and leaves the room. The other male doctors follow, leaving us with Dr. Scribbles.

  She’s older than Dr. Goatee and a lot quieter when she finally speaks. “When you get headaches, where are they? Can you show me?” Bryan points, explaining as best he can. She nods. “Have they always been there?”

  He’s silent for a moment, thinking, and then shakes his head. “No, they moved. Originally it felt like a sinus headache that was behind my ears and eyes.”

  She nods as she takes in the information, writing, her eyes scanning her notes swiftly as she does so. She asks a few more questions, mostly about time—when did this happen, when did that happen—followed by an exam. She asks questions, poking and prodding, until Bryan is too exhausted to answer. He slumps back into his bed.

  She sighs and stares at her papers, and then looks up at Bryan before clutching the papers to her chest. “Let me talk to the others.” She smiles at us and leaves.

  When the door clicks shut, I look over at Bryan. I’ve been sitting in a chair across from him. “That was cryptic.”

  His arm is draped over his eyes. “Yeah, I thought she was going to bust out a measuring tape and suggest a coffin size.”

  “Bryan!”

  “She took notes for two hours straight!”

  I smile and laugh a little. “She was probably writing hate mail to your aunt. It’s a hobby I plan on joining her in soon.” Bryan laughs so hard he winces. I rush over and slip into the bed next to him. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you hurt more.”

  He holds up a hand. I take it, and kiss the back. “Laughter is one of the only things keeping me sane.” He smiles up at me and then lays down, placing his head in my lap.

  “Me, too.” We sit there for a long time, me gently stroking his hair while humming a lullaby I don’t remember learning. I sing the notes softly, continuing even after he’s asleep.

  I never heard the door open, so I startle when I see Joselyn standing there.

  She holds up her hands and then presses a finger to her lips. She studies her brother as if trying to see the cancer through his skin. Finally, she looks up at me and whispers, “Did they say anything?”

  “Not yet,” I whisper back.

  “If they need me for anything, I’m here.” She’s so nervous. Her arms are wrapped around her middle and she’s barely breathing. She thinks Bryan will die before he forgives her for splitting us up. Jos looks everywhere except at Bryan. Tucking a piece of hair behind her ear, she rushes on, “I’d give him a kidney if it would help. I mean it, Hallie. Make sure they know.” She’s wringing her hands, about to burst into tears again. Her navy blue top is made of flowing fabric. It’s coupled with a pair of ripped jeans that cost a fortune. Jos looks straight into my eyes. “Anything he needs, ok. Be sure to tell him. I know he’s mad at me and I wish I could undo everything. I’m so sorry, Hallie.”

  Bryan speaks, surprising both of us. “I’m not mad at you, Jos. I’d love it if you were here when they came back. Sit. Stay.” We both thought he was asleep.

  Jos’s lip quivers violently, but she manages to tame it and takes her seat. “I love you, Bry.”

  He smiles weakly. “Right back at you, Mini Twin.”

  Chapter 9

  The silent doctor returns, the male doctors following behind. Bryan is lying down, but when he sees her, he slides up and rests his back against the headboard. Jos and I had been talking, remembering things from when we were all happy and healthy—before the break-up. If he wasn’t dying I don’t think I could have forgiven her, but I can’t cause Jos a lifetime of grief for this one mistake. She thought she was looking out for her brother, and I can’t say I wouldn’t do the same to protect Maggie.

  Dr. Scribbles clears her throat. Sean finds a place at the back of the room and leans his broad shoulders against a wall. Constance stands front and center. “Well?” Her voice is strained, tight. She doesn’t want to tell her sister that her son is truly dying.

  Dr. Plaid and the other guys nod to Dr. Scribbles and her notepad. She looks around the room slowly from face to face, before clutching the notebook to her chest. “I know everyone is on edge waiting for an answer, so I’m not going to come to it slowly—he is dying. Every indication shows that the tumor is growing rapidly, causing the pain, dizziness, and vision disturbances. We know you were told that the location of his tumor makes it inoperable, but I disagree. It is operable.”

  As soon as she says the words, everyone reacts in their own way. Sean pushes off the wall, demanding more details. Constance demands to know why his previous doctors claimed it was inoperable. Bryan leans forward, like he’s reaching for a dream that can’t be real. I know that look and it scares me. There was something in the doctor’s tone, something she didn’t get to say because everyone started talking. I grip Bryan’s hand and squeeze. We look at each other, too afraid to hope.

  The female doctor tries to speak, but everyone is talking at once. Then there’s a high pitched whistle. The doc with the goatee pulls his fingers out of his mouth, bows his head to his associate, and says, “Continue, Dr. Sten.”

  The woman is calm, but the Ferros unnerve her. I can see it in her eyes. She sucks in air and explains. “Listen, they were right and they were wrong. Performing the surgery to remove the entire tumor will kill him before the cancer gets the chance, but—and this is the part where I ask you to remain silent until I’m finished—there is a procedure that can be done to remove part of the tumor. By removing it in pieces, it would allow us to go in and take away the parts that aren’t surrounding a crucial part of the brain. If that surgery goes well, we can try the final surgery and completely remove the growth. It’s a prudent way to buy more time and make certain that we can remove the tumor. It’s wrapped itself around parts of the brain that will cause extreme trauma if the surgery doesn’t go well. Untreated, the tumor will kill him anyway. With surgery, he might live.”

  Bryan is the first to speak, “Might?”

  “The odds are still very slim, Mr. Ferro.”

  Thoughtfully, Bryan asks, “Why wasn’t this option suggested previously?”

  “Your previous doctors did not make this suggestion because this option wasn’t available to us before now.” Dr. Scribbles looks at Constance, unsure if she should say anything else.

  Constance rolls her eyes and swats a hand. “I had an acquaintance at the FDA expedite approval of a new project. It had been tabled due to the millions of dollars in old medical equipment it would render obsolete, were it available for use. I then gave a generous donation to our hospital to buy the machine. My acquaintance is taking care of the part where the government has been dragging its feet.”

  “What are the odds of success?” Jos asks, timidly. She looks so small, so afraid.

  Dr. Sten looks over at her. “Not very good, I’m afraid. We don’t have enough data yet and every surgery has risks. This one has more than others because of the location of the growth.”

  Sean asks, “Why break it into two separa
te surgeries? Why not try to do it all at once? Especially if the risk is so high.”

  Dr. Goatee answers. “It’s a precaution and buys us more time.”

  I’m missing something. Why do they need more time? I’m about to ask, but Bryan beats me to it. “You’re not telling us something. I have a feeling Aunt Connie knows, but I need to be the one who decides, so tell me.”

  Dr. Sten places her clipboard down and walks toward us, stopping at the foot of the bed. “There’s a chance your first doctor was right, that even with the new machine, we can’t reach the growth. We’re hoping that removing a piece of the mass will slow the cancer. Giving us more time, allows us to come up with more options, more treatments. However, if the cancer is more invasive than we’d thought—“

  “Then you risked his life for nothing.” Sean closes his eyes before pinching the bridge of his nose.

  “It’s not simple, Mr. Ferro. Nothing about this is easy.” Dr. Sten looks over at Bryan. “You have so little time left.”

  “Yeah, but this could take it all away and I don’t want to waste any of it. That’s what you’re telling me, right? That if I do this, I may die anyway. And if you don’t remove all of the tumor, it’ll just come back. Do I understand you correctly, doctor?” His last words are angry, but he’s trying to hide it.

  Jon has been staring out the window. He turns and nods. “That’s exactly what she’s saying.”

  Dr. Sten’s voice softens. “I can’t tell you what to do. We only recommend surgery when the benefits outweigh the risks. In your case, the surgery is too new to know for certain. You may recover fully.”

  “Or he could die on the table.” Sean is the master of bluntness.

  Constance finally speaks up. “How long does he have?”

  “A few weeks, maybe less. There’s another problem.” Dr. Sten looks over at the men.

  Doc Plaid explains, “He’s ripe for an aneurism. He can’t move, been sitting or sleeping most of the day. Considering the rate at which that tumor is growing in his head, he could leave us at any time now.”

  The room is silent. No one speaks. Prickles line my arms and neck. I want to yell at them and tell them they’re wrong, so I bite my lip. The silence grows deafeningly loud until Bryan speaks. “So, I’m already dead. In which case, I should have the surgery. Is that your recommendation?”

  They nod.

  Bryan looks away and pulls his hand from mine. He pushes his hair out of his face and stands. I have no idea what he’s doing or what he’s going to say. “It’s strange, you know. I don’t feel like I’m dying, not right now. And the problem is, I’m not ready to leave yet. You’re asking me to give up the little time I have left when the odds aren’t in my favor anyway. If I was your kid, what would you do? If you had what I have, would you choose the surgery or live the last few minutes of your life the way you wanted?” He’s standing in front of them, sincerely asking, but the doctors don’t speak. Bryan works his jaw and his anger bursts free. “Answer me! I deserve that! There is no way in Hell you should ask me to do something that you wouldn’t do yourself!” His fists are balled at his sides.

  I don’t expect anyone to answer, but surprisingly, Dr. Sten speaks, her voice soothing, “I would do it, even with the risk. It’s trading minutes for a lifetime. If things went well, you’ll have a chance to start a family, to love the people you care about. If things go wrong on the operating table, well, you were dead anyway. To me, it’s worth the risk. That’s why I lingered. In your position I would choose surgery. My colleagues disagree, but I couldn’t keep this option from you. I would choose it myself.” She smiles kindly at him. “Knowing my answer won’t help you make yours, Bryan. But it’s the best we can offer you, and it’s better than nothing.”

  Bryan stiffens as she speaks. Pain is flooding his body. I jump up and pull him back to the foot of the bed. “Sit. Here.” I hand him more medicine. Bryan looks over at me with glassy eyes. He blinks once, hard, and a tear rolls down his cheek.

  “I was supposed to watch out for you.”

  Keeping my voice as steady as possible, I hang my arm across his shoulders and pull him into my side. “You’ll always be watching out for me, whether you’re here or there.”

  My words choke him up more. He tries to pull away, but I won’t let go. The cup of water is knocked out of my hand and his pills roll across the floor as he buries his face into my shoulder. “I’m not weak,” he whispers.

  “No one thinks you are,” I whisper back. We stay like that for a few moments. Everyone is watching us, waiting for Bryan’s answer. When he pulls away from my shoulder, he puts on his fake smile and stands.

  Padding to Dr. Sten, he offers his hand. She takes it and shakes. “I don’t understand.”

  “While all of you spoke truthfully, Dr. Sten, you told me how you felt and why. Will you be the doctor performing the surgery?”

  She nods. “There will be several of us, including my colleagues present here today.”

  “But you will be the lead doctor, right?” She nods. “Then set it up.”

  Chapter 10

  Two days. That’s when they set the surgery that will most likely kill him. Everyone except Sean has gone. Bryan made his decision for better or worse, and doesn’t want to talk about it. He’s retreated behind fake smiles again and I can’t blame him. He hides his fear so well. I wouldn’t have thought he was afraid at all, but I know he is. The way he looks at me, the touch of his hand is almost panicked after he sits down next to me on his bed.

  I don’t want to leave him, but I have to go end things with Neil before he comes looking for me. “Stay with him until I get back?” I can’t believe I’m asking Sean Ferro for a favor. He nods and remains in a dark corner like a snake waiting to strike. Sean freaks me out. Seriously. I’m glad he’s on Bryan’s side.

  I grab my purse and look down at the oversized sweats. If this doesn’t send a message, I don’t know what will. “I’ll be back in a little bit.” I lean over to kiss Bryan on the forehead, but he pulls me down onto the bed and slows the kiss, licking the seam of my lips until I let him in. Butterflies swirl inside my stomach and I giggle, pushing him back when I remember we’re being watched. “Bryan!”

  “No more little kisses, not until I’m gone. Save that peck for the final kiss before they lower me into the ground.”

  His words stab me through the heart. I can barely breathe, but he looks up at me, holding onto my hands. “Hallie, the only time we have is right now. I’ve accepted it. The surgery isn’t going to work. Promise me that you’ll kiss me good-bye.”

  I try to smile, but my mouth doesn’t want to move, so I nod. Bryan’s dark lashes lower. “So, are you going to break things off with him or tell him that you’ll be home in a few days?”

  “You really think I could go back to him after all of this?” I stare in disbelief, my jaw hanging open. I glance back at Sean, but Bryan takes my cheek and turns me back toward him.

  Looking into my eyes he says, “You should go back to him when this is done. You shouldn’t be alone.”

  “How can you say that?”

  “I won’t be here anymore, Hallie. He was good to you.”

  “He told me to sleep with you so we could avoid a scandal. He wasn’t good for me and I’m not staying with him. I’m sick of doing things the easy way. Besides, I won’t be alone. I have Maggie. We’ll watch out for each other, so don’t worry about us.” Bryan begins to protest, so I lean in and give him another lavish kiss. “I’ll be back in an hour or so.”

  “All right. Then I have something fun planned.”

  “Do you?”

  “Yes, so prepare yourself.” He winks at me and I blush. “Damn, Hallie. I may need to send Sean away so I can have my way with you.”

  I smile and laugh. “In a little bit. I’ll be right back.” I glance up at Sean. He’s emerged from his corner and pulls up a chair next to Bryan. For a second I have a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach, like something is about to go horri
bly wrong.

  “I’ve got this, Hallie. Go.” Sean starts talking to Bryan about some new patent he’s applying for and asks him how he chose his technology stocks. All business. Good. For a second, I was worried Sean was going to tell Bryan about Victor.

  Chapter 11

  “Neil?” I call his name as I shove through the front door of his condo. My plan is to end this nicely and walk away. I’ll come after for the money when the time comes, but it’s not right now. Touching the engagement ring on my finger, I twist, pulling it off. Neil should be parked in front of the computer playing WOW with his friends. That’s his normal activity for right now and unplanned life will likely give way to chaos. He always says stuff like that, which is going to make this harder. He’s going to think that I’m leaving him to be with Bryan, but that’s not the whole of it. I don’t want my life to be lived like this. It’s not fair to me or him. Padding through the kitchen, I look around. Two cups are on the counter, empty. The coffee pot is still full and smells burnt. I walk over and turn it off.

  An eerie feeling creeps up my spine as I look around. Something’s off but I can’t tell what. Everything is the way it usually is, so I shove my paranoia aside. “Neil?” I call his name again, but no answer.

  I lean against the counter and turn back to look at the room. I can see straight through the house, all the way to the front door. Everything is meticulous, as it always is, but one thing is not. A chair—Neil’s chair—at the kitchen table is pulled out and pivoted slightly. It looks like it was shoved in with one hand. My gaze rests on the chair. Even in a hurry, he wouldn’t do something like that. I walk over and look at the piece of wood, wishing it could speak. I don’t want to be here.

  Gathering my courage, I hike up the stairs and stop in front of the closed door. “Neil, I know you’re angry with me, but we need to talk. We can’t go on like this. It’s not good for either of us.” I’m looking at the ring in my hand as I speak. Still no answer. “Neil?”